nothing much

I was too scared. Maybe I cant accept the truth coming out from you. Also, was not able to tolerate when I was included in one of the kind from your point of view. For now, I shall accept what you say.

Lots of time, I heard your stories. Knowing that that's the reason you leave, I had always reminding myself not to be one.
Therefore, when you told me I was going to be like one, I was very scare. What if you will do the same again one day? You just dont understand.I cant forget the moment when I asked you why do you say so. As you were trying to further explain, my heart got hurts a little. I felt like bursting out. Just in a few seconds, when my tears will be flowing down my cheeks, I hold it strongly and fake out a big-cheerful smile. :D

The way I responses annoyed you? Oh my.. Maybe I was just joking around with it, and had showed my inner feelings through. Maybe I wanted to tell you that I never have the confidence on myself :/ as I know clearly that I have a lot of flaws...

You dont understand the fear I am going through now. So, i was said sensitive.

I am sensitive? haha... hmm... let me rephrase. I response to stimuli in a big manner. :P yea la, I super agree with this sensitive thing. :P I know I am one. I care about what you say cause I am worried of your leaving. You mean much to me :)

Just imagine, when I am being neutral as always and work on Reducing on what I should not do or react and increasing what i should. When we covert this into a graph. Will this still be considered as an interesting graph? :P It will just fall flat! :P

Come on, this shall full of emotions, real thoughts and true feelings!

Anyhow, I know being too over on one aspect is bad. I promise to keep that in control frequently. On the meantime, I shall be myself and not faking around. :) [Showing off all my positive attitude towards things :)]

Please can you mean what you say? Accepting for who I am? I still remember you said that! :P not being tolerate. The two words seems to be alike but they have big difference in their meaning. Nvm, I will make you to accept for who I am one day! :) You shall wait and see :D play a part by getting along with this! ;)

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由于圆桌是讲华语的， 我就中文写吧！

不须讲太多，做就对了。
在第一次的分享会，让我印象最深的是当有一位当了人家父亲的分享。他说他发现当他主动帮了他的家公换灯泡，第二天他的孩子就问他为什么要帮忙. 那时，他才发现其实他不须要一直跟孩子说要怎么做，而是以身作则。那时，我也发现同样的东西。有时，我也告诉我妹不要对人没礼貌。或许我说的话，毫无用处及意义， 因为我也是在我每没察觉的时候，对人很不客气。


先改变我自己
另一位则分享了他当他开始对人好的时候，人家也会跟着反应对你好。 因此，人家对你很不好，也许是你的问题。就这样， 我们须先看看我们自己，真心的对人好，那个人就自然会对你好了。你不相信？那你就去试试看咯！ 当然不是短暂的对人好，是要持续的哦！:) 我也在努力着，你也是要加油！

（改变自己吧！）

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curtains. window. corner

The first day I went back to school after my MSSD badminton competition, it was 1-2-2012. It is a new month, February which means is time to swap places. this system is enforced in our class as many of the people sitting near the windows claimed that everyone should have the chance to sit there to enjoy the fan and also suffer for the hot sun.

So that we changed. I was sitting on the fourth column (the one near the window), third row. I am okay with it since we must be fair. Not until teacher started copying stuff on the board, I am a little annoyed and frustrated. Seriously, why the hell that tall guy sit in the first row??? Totally blocking my whole view. Stupid... I started to complain to my friends. (not that much as last time already, okay? :) ) Saying that I am so unlucky, other front row all short people, I mean not so tall and mine ARE SO TALL! :( haih...

Recess time, i complained to ys. She told me nvm. She said," I also sit at the back before and i feel like chopping off everyone's head. If I dont sit there, some other people will be the mangsa."

SO, after listening to her wise words, I decided to take the challenge. :) I am going to get used to it for a month. I can do it although the place is really quite hot and the curtains are still annoying.

the green curtains in school! (same pattern but not shorter)

haha... but nvm. :) i still have the wind sometimes.

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Mind is Powerful

During Cny when I was back to my home town, the electricity suddenly blacked out. So, we used some candle to light up the house. A few cousins surrounded the table with two candles. There was the time when i looked at the candle and said,"Fall! Candle fall! and burn the papers which were on the table."

ON that time, my sister heard and she wanted me to stop saying and thinking it that way as for her, she said that our mind is powerful that what we think will come true.

Then, I said," but the candle also never fall."

"Think and believe without any DOUBTS." she empathised.

So, I kept quiet but in my mind, i was continue wishing that it will drop while I was kept on staring on the candle like i am giving some 'jampi'.

Suddenly, my mom walked out from the kitchen to the table to put those CNY biscuits on that table. In a sudden manner, the biscuits container accidently hit the candle and it fell. However, the candle did not burn the paper. :( haha.. fail :P

Still, the candle did drop. From that onwards, I began to believe that mind is very powerful. :)

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